Please define old?? 🤣 I see this a lot. It also happens with women BTW. In mindfulness we call this grasping, wanting or attachment (among other things) its a jumble of emotions that old white sides have a challenging time unjumbling. It is easier to be jealous or stay stuck than it is to do the work to be gentle, loving, kind, and respectful to yourself and others.

You are a rock star. Keep up the good work and service.